We have this in abundance in our home. I feel very lucky and blessed to have a man that loves me unconditionally and fur kids that do to! I feel the same about all of them.

What is your take on this quote?

This morning I did something hard, I opened the metal box my former familiar’s ashes came in, in 2007 to remove the last of his hair to be put into a clear container. I had just done the same with Dreamer’s hair and nail clippings so I am a little melancholy as I type this. My Boots was gotten as a family dog in August 1992 but it was apparent from the first day I met him he and I had a special bond. He crossed the rainbow bridge in November 2007 after having multiple grand and petti mal seizures over a six hour period. Was the decision super hard to assist him into eternal sleep? Hell, yes it was. At the time I was going to school to earn my veterinary assistant certification and as luck or a deity had decided I had just finished the lessons about seizures, so at least I knew what was happening and could make sure he was safe while in one. They started about 5:00 AM and did not stop until his assisted crossing of the bridge was done.

As the human who is in charge of keeping a furry family member fed, plenty of water, going out for bathroom breaks and exercise or keeping a litter box clean it can be a very hard task when it comes time to decide if our furry family members quality of life has gone down hill enough, not as the furry’s mom or dad but looking at it from a clinical distances (I know easier said than done), to assist them into their eternal sleep or not. I had to stand back and look at things through the eyes and brain of an animal medical person and tuck my breaking heart away for a little while to make a decision that was best for them. Yes, with Boots I could have spent a lot of money with a vet specialist and anti-seizure medications but after the third grand mal seizure, there were I think 6 or 8 total, his hearing had gone and he had trouble trying to get up from the floor onto his favorite blanket. He was whimpering as he had always went outside to relive himself that’s what he wanted. So, I picked him up and carried him outside than to my astonishment he got up walked to his favorite bush in the yard and did his things. Immediately afterwards he collapsed on the ground in another grand mal. Now in between the grand mal seizures he was having petit mal ones too. How many? I have no idea as I lost count after about 20. He was about 14 1/2 years old at the time of his crossing, he had come to live with myself, my mom, and children when he was 5 1/2 weeks old.

Boots was loved, well cared for, and played with all his physical life just as Dreamer was. Now I know they are together playing with Dreamer’s mom Gyspy and Dreamer’s pups that went before her. They both come often to visit. I feel Boots talked Dreamer into visiting us so soon after she crossed knowing how much his visits have helped me over the years since his crossing.

The main reason for this post is while we may not want to give up a furry family member when they are old and in pain or even young but injured badly we have to take what they need to be comfortable and have a good quality of life. If the way they have lived their life has been really compromised we need to do the right thing for them and let them go to cross to the other side of the veil. If you tell them or better yet ask them to come visit you after they have crossed the bridge I know for a fact that 9 out of 10 times they will do just that! Humans who have crossed come it they feel like it, if they don’t try another day. Use this link https://www.patreon.com/posts/to-call-loved-to-85355486?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=join_link for the spell I posted today on Patreon to try call humans or other species to you after they have crossed the veil.

Today our Dreamer has been gone physically from us for a week. Yes, today is a hard one again. I know with time it does not get easier with time it just gets different. Dreamer paid a visit to Big Dawg last Saturday and has been hanging out mostly with our three other fur kids which I know has made her crossing easier on them. We picked her ashes up this past Monday and kept it in the car with us as we worked that day. I had one very short visit in the car Monday when we stopped at a McDonald’s for burgers and fries while out delivering important paperwork to individuals, Big Dawg has been a process server for over a month now and I help keep him and all the paperwork organized. We only had the front two windows down a tiny bit, I was getting ready to put some fries in my mouth when I felt someone breathe on my neck. It could have been my familiar before Cleo and Star, but Boots never really liked McDonald’s french fries whereas Dreamer loved them. I called her by name, put a fry on my shoulder and felt her sniffing it. While humans or animals do not eat food as the living do, I thoroughly believe they can take in the smell and essence of it. When I set the fry on my shoulder Big Dawg asked me, “What in the hell are you doing?” I hadn’t told him Dreamer was in the car with us yet as I was being selfish as it was my first interaction with her since she crossed. When I told him we both had to try to hold back tears. I would be harder to bear this lose if we didn’t have each other, meaning the humans and fur kids.

This is one of the times in my life that being a strong empath is a curse rather than a blessing. I am able to pick up any kind of mammal’s feelings so with all of us trying to get use to a new normal of three live fur kids and one spirit fur kid it has been rough on me as I was picking up everyone in the house emotions. Tuesday morning, I finally had enough of feeling everyone else’s emotions and strength the wards and shield I keep around myself so I can leave my home. This is part of the reason why I took yesterday completely off. The other part was the horrible air quality where we live today and this past week, while it was definitely better here than many other parts of Illinois and the northeastern USA it was still bad for both of us as we have asthma. At least the sir is starting to clear some here!

So, this is how things are going for me today.

How are they going for you?

Well, I had to stopped halfway through Monday’s posts as my mind was running in every direction except on the post I was working on. I had a “oh that’s why” moment as I realized that it has been Dreamer who helped me stay focused on my tasks with WOTC everything. So, the tears started falling and were getting my keyboard damp which is not a good thing. I have been missing her more than I can express but not letting it show too much so I can be here for Big Dawg and help ease his pain from losing his big baby girl. I can only be strong for Big Dawg and our other fur kids for so long today will be looking at and dealing with my own extreme sadness of my Dreamcicle being gone physically from my life. She came to visit Big Dawg very early Saturday morning. I am trying to patiently wait for my own visit from her but I don’t know if it will ever come or not.

Even though my heart is not in it I will go try to finish all the regular daily posts for Monday.