
Today our Dreamer has been gone physically from us for a week. Yes, today is a hard one again. I know with time it does not get easier with time it just gets different. Dreamer paid a visit to Big Dawg last Saturday and has been hanging out mostly with our three other fur kids which I know has made her crossing easier on them. We picked her ashes up this past Monday and kept it in the car with us as we worked that day. I had one very short visit in the car Monday when we stopped at a McDonald’s for burgers and fries while out delivering important paperwork to individuals, Big Dawg has been a process server for over a month now and I help keep him and all the paperwork organized. We only had the front two windows down a tiny bit, I was getting ready to put some fries in my mouth when I felt someone breathe on my neck. It could have been my familiar before Cleo and Star, but Boots never really liked McDonald’s french fries whereas Dreamer loved them. I called her by name, put a fry on my shoulder and felt her sniffing it. While humans or animals do not eat food as the living do, I thoroughly believe they can take in the smell and essence of it. When I set the fry on my shoulder Big Dawg asked me, “What in the hell are you doing?” I hadn’t told him Dreamer was in the car with us yet as I was being selfish as it was my first interaction with her since she crossed. When I told him we both had to try to hold back tears. I would be harder to bear this lose if we didn’t have each other, meaning the humans and fur kids.
This is one of the times in my life that being a strong empath is a curse rather than a blessing. I am able to pick up any kind of mammal’s feelings so with all of us trying to get use to a new normal of three live fur kids and one spirit fur kid it has been rough on me as I was picking up everyone in the house emotions. Tuesday morning, I finally had enough of feeling everyone else’s emotions and strength the wards and shield I keep around myself so I can leave my home. This is part of the reason why I took yesterday completely off. The other part was the horrible air quality where we live today and this past week, while it was definitely better here than many other parts of Illinois and the northeastern USA it was still bad for both of us as we have asthma. At least the sir is starting to clear some here!
So, this is how things are going for me today.













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