I am sorry that once again my insomnia kept me from getting today’s posts up at the regular time. I was up for around 27 hours between very early yesterday morning until I finally feel asleep about 5 AM today. Worry about my son WIlliam kept me up last night as i went into a super fibromyalgia flare again. Stress and my adrenal glands just don’t work well together along with allergies not responding to my normal dose of allergy medicine. Yep, I was and am a train wreck waiting to happen at times and this is one of those times.
With having 5 children, 4 of which have children of their own and a partner. While WIlliam lives alone and has not experienced the ups and downs, joys and heart ache of being a parent or in a long-term relationship yet; he doesn’t quite understand my point of view worrying about him as he is healing from his, to me, horrific injury. In fact, because of my overprotective motherly concern in regard to his, having no cash flow right now due to his injury, granted it was at 2 AM and I should have waited until later to text him, he has asked me not to contact him for a while which put me in tears this morning and as I am typing this.
Maybe some of you can help me understand why a grown child, who just turn 39 years old in June, can’t understand why a mother or father worried about their child no matter how old they are? Or maybe I am overreacting to his situation because of my sleep being messed up and my brain not functioning as well as it should as a result of the lack of sleep? I would really like your point of view as you are further away from the love and worry, I feel for my youngest child. Am I overstepping my boundaries as a parent or not? Thank you very much in advance for your input on this!!
Well time to get posts up for you all today. I will only be doing a few of the regular daily posts so, I can get back to doing the northern hemisphere tomorrow which are the southern hemispheres today posts today. I could not have gotten through this last week if not for your encouragement, love, and support. Thank you for all you do to help me every day!!
Witches Of The Craft® 
Europeans say that only Italian mothers are so apprehensive … I console myself (mother of two, 16 and 13), there are mothers like us in America too!
LikeLiked by 1 person
Definitely there are mother’s everywhere that overprotective and “mother hen” their children no matter how old the child is.
LikeLiked by 2 people
I can see both points of view. You wanted reassurance all was well and to voice your concerns- totally legit as a mother (I have a 22 yr old son still at home- my one and done). I have and still do lose so much sleep over him. It’s a mother’s fate I think. Even mothers with great faith still worry after handing those worries over.
I can see from your son’s perspective as well. My mother ( she was a narc so it’s not the best comparison- sorry!) was so meddlesome in my life but she did it for her own selfish needs and desires. I wanted away from her so bad I went to Norway for a year at 18, then off to college for three years and world in Glacier National Park for 6 months giving tours in an antique bud, just to avoid her. I even wed so poorly that I am suffering for it nearly 30 years later!
But- beyond my hang ups as a kid. I can think that While I’d love my mother having concern for me and reaching out, it could be overwhelming (his own injury may affect his moods too) to feel that you’re a middle aged man and why can’t mom let me live my life.
I look at my son and still see a 2 year old, a 7 year old, a 12 year old (ok he is developmentally delayed and is about 12 or 13 lol) and I have a hard time letting him learn the hard way in life.
It was and still is, sadly, the best teacher for me…ok not the best, I’m learning to listen to my gut (solar plexus chakra) because she has been my true north my entire life. I’m learning to listen to that inner voice that is still and quiet and letting her lead me.
I hope you can get some sleep (I’m going on 20 hours awake. I’ve have surgery this morning and still have one more Dr visit, so it’s gonna be another 24 hours or more.) and can find peace and clarity.
A mother’s work is never done. As well as I think it’s a mother’s curse to never eat a hot meal once you give birth! LOL
My heart and head and idiots, well meaning, but they are still for me, both idiots LOL
You can only do so much and then you have to pull back and hope and pray for the best outcome. It’s so hard and you’ve given them your mental and physical health from the best years of your life, and now you just want thanks for all you did and to watch and see that they did actually learn something that will benefit them in a way that didn’t hurt them.
Our kids are tough though, we raised them to have grit and moxy.
LikeLike