Before We Celebrate Beltane Tomorrow Or Tonight, Let’s Clear The Air…..

I am getting ready to take Kade to the Vet. Yes, he is still alive. I called and called to see if I could get him into a Vet earlier but they had no appointments till today. So I have been nursing him and mix every potion I could to keep him alive just to get him to the Vet.

I know I am across the other day like a raving lunatic and I have felt the tension on this site the whole time I have been posting. I know I came across the other day as a total evil, money-hunger witch. Money is one topic that most site owners don’t dare talk to their members about. I have talked to several other owners of sites that are like the WOTC and they all agree with me that it does talk money to operate these sites. Sometimes the members do not realize how much it actually costs and of course, they never mention that at all because they know they would get the same response I got here.

I do not like to lose my temper because I have a very bad temper. But that day I was worried about Kade and when I came on here, I saw three comments which just sent me through the roof. Now I want you to put yourself in my place, pretend the WOTC belongs to you, ok. Now you come on the site and you see three different individuals who make the comment, “how dare you come on this site” and the comments when on to get even nastier after that. How dare I come on to this site, really? These people must have been new or else they didn’t realize who they were making that comment too. It made me very angry and I can guarantee you, those words will haunt them the rest of their lives. That is what started it all and while I was at it, I just let it all pour out. Something I don’t like to do but…. I had a lot on my mind and I really didn’t need three smart-ass people telling me, “how dare I come on my own site.” Now if that wouldn’t upset you, then you aren’t human. It flew all over me and I lost my temper.

I hate I lost my temper because I don’t like to do so. I hurt people’s feelings that I do not mean to hurt. I know the words I said cannot be taken back. What has been said, has been said. I believe in the 10 years we have been on WordPress, I have blew my stack two other times. That is a darn good record for me. There has been times I have bit my tongue and let it slide but this comment,  I couldn’t let go. I did include some other words that I wish I could take back but like I said the words have been spoken and the damage is done.

I believe over the years, you that have been with us for a while, know me. You know what kind of person I really am. I am not one that usually flies off the handle at the drop of a hat. I have learned to control my temper fairly well I think. Maybe I got the wrong impression for these individuals, I don’t know I am still trying figure that one out. I have had numerous people from our past show up here and most of them have been trouble makers from our past. Maybe I had a flash back to those days. Back then it seemed that everyone and their brother wanted to take over the WOTC. Hell, I had one assistant who gave one of those people the password to the Dark Arts Library we had. Seriously, the man knew what kind of trouble this person had caused us and gave him the damn password. Can you imagine that? I couldn’t and I lived through it.

I know some of my actions are due to the past events that have happened to me and the WOTC. I shouldn’t let them reflect now on my actions that I take. But I am worse than an elephant, I never forget and unfortunately I hold grudges. It seems for the first few years, everyone tried to tear us down, It was non-stop, people who you thought were your friends had a knife stuck in your back before you knew what happened. So I guess I am a product of that environment. I always try to keep my guard up to protect the WOTC and myself. I try to keep it up to protect you and provide you with a safe place to come and feel free from the outside world. No pickering, fighting or arguments, boy did I blow that one out of the water. I will be the first to admit it, when I get on a roll I don’t have sense enough to shut-up even though I should.

I hate I said what I said but I can’t take it back. What is done, is done. I know you have hard feelings toward me and all I can ask is that you try to over look my human faults. We all have them, some of us more than others. But while you are thinking it over, I want you to think about one thing. Would you rather be in a group that the owner is ready to fight & protect the site, your beliefs and our ways or would you rather be in one that the owner rolls overs and lets everything slide? I know I said some hurtful words, I can’t ask for your forgiveness because those words are engraved in your heart. But now that you know what set me off, I would ask that you try to over look my faults. There is nothing in this world I would not do for any of you. You have been wonderful to me and the WOTC and I had no right going off like I did.

I know the last time I went off and found myself in this situation, I said the next time I would call those people out by name. I screwed up, I didn’t do that. Next time I will. Yeah right, like I will remember that. But in all seriousness I won’t you to know what set me off and I believe if you were in my shoes, it would have you too.

Those people are gone and I can guarantee you they are paying for what all they had to say. I am an easy going witch till I get crossed and then all heck breaks loose. I had a lot on my plate and those comments and those people did not help the situation at all and I lost my temper. Unfortunately, all of you had to listen to it and your feelings got hurt. I know that because like I said I can feel the tension. I don’t want that feeling here. That is not what the WOTC is about. I know I mentioned leaving the WOTC, like a fool, I played right into those people’s hand. There has been people over the years who have done everything in the book to try to get me to leave the WOTC. I hate to tell them, that will never happen. It was stupid on my part to even say it, I realize that now. I would never ever leave this site. It is my baby. We have survived a lot over the years and I am sure there will be more trials and tribulations to come. I don’t know it seems people do everything they can to destroy something successful. Why? They can stand to see other people succeed at something. Are they jealous? I have never been jealous of anyone. I have always been proud of other’s accomplishments. If people could only be proud of ours, then again that would be a miracle.

Well if I don’t hush and get off of here, I am going to miss our vet’s appointment. I can’t ask for your forgiveness because the words have already done their damage. I can only ask that you over look my faults and remember I am human just like everyone else.

Till tomorrow,

Have a very blessed & magickal Beltane Eve,

Lady of the Abyss

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While I Was Posting On Another Site, I Ran Across This Info On Walpurgis Night

This article give you a little more insight into the previous information you were given. Thought you might be interested in learning a little more about Walpurgis Night

 

Walpurgis Night

Walpurgis Night falls on the evening of April 30. In past times many people feared that witches were especially active on this day and evening (see also Easter Witches). Northern and central European folklore warned that these menacing figures prowled in the twilight dusk, waiting until the dark hours of the night to gather together for a wild feast and frolic. Rumors circulated as to the exact location of this fearsome gathering. Many believed that it might lie on Mount Brocken (Brockenberg), in Germany’s Harz Mountains. On Walpurgis Night people took extra precautions to prevent passing witches from harming their families, homes, and fields. Folk tradition taught that loud noises frightened away witches. Therefore, people rang church bells, slammed doors, hit pots and pans, and cracked whips. They also lit bonfires and torches, raised crosses, and decorated their homes with rosemary and birch boughs, all of which were thought to repel witches. Little remains of these Walpurgis Night beliefs today. In past times, however, they were so common that they inspired the great German writer Johann Wolfgang von Goethe (1749-1832) to depict a Walpurgis Night witches’ sabbath in his famous play, Faust (1808-32). In the play the devil, who goes by the name of Mephistopheles, takes Faust to this sinister event. In addition, vivid images of a midsummer’s night witches’ festival on Mount Brocken spurred Russian composer Modest Mussorgsky (1839-1881) to write his well-known piece, Night on Bald Mountain (1867), also known as Saint John’s Night on Bare Mountain.

 

The Scandinavian and German-speaking countries produced most of Europe’s Walpurgis Night witch lore. Nevertheless, in some other European countries the evening was also thought to have an eerie quality about it. In England and Ireland, old folk traditions taught special methods for protecting oneself from witchcraft on this night. Irish lore hinted that the fairies fought one another over the ripening crops on this evening.

 

Why April 30?

Some folklorists point out that Walpurgis Night falls on the evening before May Day, a day long associated in folklore with the death of winter, the birth of spring, and the celebration of nature. Walpurgis Night itself falls exactly six months from Halloween, another evening associated with uncanny forces and supernatural encounters in European folklore. Some folklorists speculate that in past times people viewed these two dates as turning points in the cycle of the year, and thus as times when the walls dividing the natural and the supernatural worlds waned thin.

 

Contemporary Customs

In the Czech Republic people still light large bonfires on the evening of April 30. In the old days, people believed that the bonfires protected them from witches. Not only could witches harm people and livestock, but they also caused winter and cold weather to linger on. Czech folklore advised that burning an effigy of a witch – that is, a life-sized dummy made to resemble a witch – hastened the coming of warm weather. Today people no longer fear witches. Nevertheless, the old custom of lighting a May eve bonfire remains. People kindle the flames close to nightfall and sit close beside them, singing songs and roasting sausages in the flames. When it’s dark they toss an ugly effigy of a witch into the flames. In the Czech Republic this oncefearful evening has become an occasion for some outdoor fun.

 

Swedes still celebrate Walpurgis Night, although contemporary Swedish festivities have little to do with witches. Instead they commemorate the death of winter and the birth of spring. University students, in particular, participate in Walpurgis Night observances, sometimes by gathering for rallies at which a speaker solemnly and formally announces the arrival of spring. In Sweden the lengthening days serve as a better guide to the changing seasons than does the weather. In this far northern land snow may still blanket the ground on April 30. In keeping with ancient traditions, the Swedes continue to light bonfires on this evening, often on hilltops or on mounds. These days, however, the fires aren’t stoked by anxious farmers seeking protection from malicious witchcraft, but rather by young lovers hoping the flames will enhance the spell that attracts them to one another.

 

Finns celebrate May eve, which they call Vappu, with singing, dancing, and revelry in the streets. In Helsinki students, and former students, wear their traditional white caps for this night of lively street activity and parties. Some may even swim across the moat that surrounds the statue of Havis Amanda in order to adorn her with a cap. On May Day students and workers stage parades.

 

Finally, Walpurgis Night celebrations have become an important tourist attraction in Germany’s Harz Mountains. In a bid to attract travelers to the region, promoters have stamped the image of the witch on everything from hotel brochures to beer steins. The village of Schierke, located at the foot of Mount Brocken, hosts about six thousand people each year for their Walpurgis Night celebrations. The day begins with a children’s costume parade, in which kindergartners dress as witches and devils. Later that evening people assemble in a local park which takes on the appearance of a fairground, complete with booths selling local crafts, drinks, and foods. Fair-goers enter into the spirit of the event, dressing as witches, goblins, vampires, and valkyries, the magical maiden-warriors from Scandinavian mythology. The evening’s festivities take place around a huge bonfire and include a pantomime play as well as a fireworks display. Rival celebrations take place in other villages of the region.

 

Walpurga

Most writers state that Walpurgis Night takes its name from the saint whose feast is celebrated on the following day. St. Walburg or Walpurga (c. 710-779) grew up to become a nun and, upon the invitation of her brother, Willibald, bishop of Eichstätt (700-787), took up the post of abbess of Heidenhem, near Nuremberg, Germany. She died on February 25, 779, but on May 1, 870, religious authorities transferred her remains to Eichstätt, where a church had been built in her name. Her feast day is celebrated on May 1 in honor of this event. Walpurga is the patroness of the diocese of Eichstätt and also the city of Antwerp, Belgium. Folk belief has credited her with the power to ward off magical harms as well as the ability to protect the harvest.

 

A few writers suggest instead that a little-known minor deity, also known as Walpurga, gave her name to the mythical festival of witches on Mount Brocken. According to local folklore Walpurga, who was associated with the woods and springtime, could tell the future with her three-cornered mirror and carried a magical spindle and thread. These attributes may signify her to be a variant of Holde, or Frau Holle, another, more popular German goddess. According to one tale the Wild Hunt, a troop of ghostly figures that rides the night skies during winter, chased Walpurga during the last nine nights before May Day. Walpurga sought protection from mortals during these nights, often entering the homes of kindly villagers through a window thoughtfully left open. Like Holda, Walpurga was believed to reward those who helped her.

 

Further Reading

Blackburn, Bonnie, and Leofranc Holford-Strevens. The Oxford Companion to the Year. Oxford, England: Oxford University Press, 1999. Casanova, Gertrude. “Walburga, St.” In Charles G. Herbermann et al., eds. The Catholic Encyclopedia. New York: Appleton, 1913. Available online at: Frazer, James George. The New Golden Bough. Theodor H. Gaster, ed. New York: S. G. Phillips, 1959. Griffin, Robert H., and Ann H. Shurgin, eds. The Folklore of World Holidays. Second edition. Detroit, MI: Gale Research, 1999. Harvey, Steenie. “Season of the Witch.” The World and I 16, 4 (April 2001): 260. Henderson, Helene, and Sue Ellen Thompson, eds. Holidays, Festivals, and Celebrations of the World Dictionary. Second edition. Detroit, MI: Omnigraphics, 1997. Ince, Sarah. The Magical Year. Richmond, VA: Time-Life Books, 1992. Nollen, Tim. Festivals of the World: Czech Republic. Milwaukee, WI: Gareth Stevens, 1999.

Web Sites

This web page, part of German instructor Robert J. Shea’s site on German folk customs, offers additional Walpurgis Night folklore: . com/shea/germusa/walpurgi.htm

Another informative page on St. Walpurga, sponsored by Catholic Community Forum

Your Ogham Reading for the Week of April 29th

Your Ogham Reading for the Week of April 29th

 

Fearn-Alder

The third letter of the Ogham alphabet is Fearn it means alder-tree. Alder-bark has been used by many cultures to treat various health problems and disorders, everything from insect bites to tuberculosis. Alder is a very water resistant hardwood and is often used in foundations where water is present. The key points to remember with alder are confidence, shielding, guidance, and standing up to ones enemies. Just as water stands no chance against alder, your enemies are at a loss when you have the protection of the alder.

Fortune – Drawing this Ogham is a sign to remain true to yourself and resist all temptation!

 

 

Huathe-Hawthorn

The Celts often believed the hawthorn to be a portal to the Otherworld. The hawthorn is a hardy plant commonly used for hedges and great firewood. It can even be an invasive species at times. The key points to remember with the letter Huathe are obstacles, walls, and obstructions. Its ability to form a natural wall gives the diviner an idea in what this symbol can mean to them and their lives.

Fortune – To overcome obstacles and walls you must make a personal sacrifice, to gain we must lose something of ourselves!

 

 

Ura-Heather

The beauty of heather flowers is one reason it is associated with the Irish Goddess of love, fertility, and new growth. Be happy when you draw this letter because it denotes love, companionship, and passion. Whether it will be a new love or an old love rekindled, Ura is a powerful symbol and one that may bring great luck in your love life.

Fortune – This Ogham deals in matters of Love. Whether it is new love or rekindling of old love, enjoy the peace and love that comes with Ura!

 

Shuffling the Cards, Your Influences for the Week of April 29th

Your Influences for the Week of April 29th

 

Tarot Influence

The Sun Reversed

The outcome of future plans is nebulous. Trouble with relationships and work is very possible.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Astrological Influence

Aquarius Reversed

This card signifies the closing of both heart and mind, which leads to stagnation.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Element Influence

Water Reversed

Water reversed denotes secrets to which you are not privy. Approach all ventures

Your Daily Rune & Witches Rune for April 30th

Your Daily Rune for April 30

Tiwaz

What is higher than the self is the Self become Higher.”

Tiwaz – “Tea-waz” – Literally: “The god, Tyr” – Esoteric: Justice, Sacrifice

Rune of the balance and justice ruled from a higher rationality. The rune of sacrifice of the individual (self) for well-being of the whole (society).

Psi: spiritual warrior, honour, righteousness

Energy: sovereign order, sacrifice, right decision making

Mundane: the rule of law, fairness, peace keeping

Divinations: faith, loyalty, justice, rationality, self-sacrifice, analysis, victory, honesty, even-handedness; or mental paralysis, over analysis, over-sacrifice, injustice, imbalance, defeat, tyranny.

Governs:
Obtaining just victory and success in battle, litigation or legal matters
Building spiritual will and development of sound judgement
Develops the power of positive self-sacrifice
Develops the “force of faith” in magic and religion

 

Your Daily Witches Rune for April 30

The Blank Rune

Meaning: This is a rune of difficulty and negative influences will rule your life for a time, but as all difficulties are a learning experience it will lead to improved personal perspective and progress on your life’s path. Always consult the surrounding runes with this stone. If it lies with a positive stone, it indicates that the pain of this experience will lead to a beneficial change in circumstances.