In Loving Memory…..

kiki

2003 – 2016

Words suddenly escape me, I’m sorry. My dear sweet baby Kiki has pass away. She started getting bad Saturday. We made it through the night and Sunday, she was acting like her old self. I had had a long night Saturday so I took off Sunday, to rest and spend time with her. Monday came and something just kept telling me not to leave her. That night she had a bad spell and I did my usual medicine that generally pulled her through. This time, she didn’t want anything to do with the medicine nor me. She went under the bed and stayed there. I laid down in the floor and she curled up in my stomach. I knew she was tired and ready to leave this world. In case you didn’t know, we have battled congestive heart failure for two years. I did everything in and above my power to keep her alive. But she was tired and ready to go home.

 

She was always such a Momma’s baby, I was afraid of her being scared to leave this realm. I had talked to the Goddess about letting Mocha and Stinker cross back over when it came time for Kiki to leave me. While I was laying in the floor curled up with Kiki, I felt something heavy step on my leg. It was Mocha, plain as day. I heard a loud purring above me, it was Stinker. Both of them came and Kiki’s little paw shook just a little bit and she passed quietly in her sleep. I am very grateful for them coming to be with Kiki but to see them and lose her at the same time, ripped my guts out.

 

I haven’t stopped crying since she passed. My eyes are almost swollen shut and Razputin is looking all over the place for Kiki(which is absolutely killing me). Razzy was there when Kiki passed but she doesn’t fully understand what has happened. She is waiting for me now to get off the computer and cuddle with her.

 

We are going to be taking a few days off. My heart is broken and my head is so confused I can’t even think straight. Kiki and I had a blood bond. When it comes to them leaving this world that is the worse kind of bond you can have. While their alive, it’s great. When they pass it rips you to shreds. So basically I am a mess right now. I would ask one thing of you, please, please, remember Kiki and me in your prayers. I know Kiki is home and at peace. It is those of us left behind that suffer and suffer. I would appreciate your prayers because they are desperately needed.

 

We will be back in a few days, right now I just can’t do it. I’m sorry.

 

I love you and please give all your fur babies a hug and kiss from me tonight, would you?

Lady of the Abyss

26 thoughts on “In Loving Memory…..”

  1. I’m so sorry for your loss! I know how much it hurts to lose a pet you are so close to! Your in my prayers.

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  4. Prayers for you in this time of need. I lost my fur baby 15yrs. ago and I still cry when I think of him. But remember all those sweet days you had together.

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  5. Oh Sweet Lady A. Words cannot convey the deep sorrow I feel right now after reading your post. Sending you love and healing energy, may it lift your spirits when your thoughts turn to Kiki. You are in our prayers. You are in my prayers.

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  6. Take all the time you need Lady A. I am so saddened by news of your loss. You and Kiki are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  8. Oh gosh, I feel for you…everything you wrote, I went through in both 2011 and 2014…time helps, but I know how heartbreaking this is. I cried for months when my 16-year old pug died in 2011 but thankfully I had my second pug…who was also searching for his older brother…gosh that hurt to watch….I cried for a year when my 19-year old pug passed on in 2014.

    I’m blessed with 3 new canine fur-babies since July last year when my boyfriend and I visited a rescue that we couldn’t leave without saving some dogs. I still miss my pugs but love and adore my new hound and huskies.

    Be well, Nature loves you,
    Fran

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  9. I’m so sorry for your loss, as I read your post it brought tears to my eyes, I could feel your pain, as I’ve just gone through this with two if my babies, and one on medication for her heart right now….they give us so much, and ask for so little in return, and leave us far too soon.

    My comfort is that I know I will be with them again someday, that they are there just on the other side waiting for me.

    You, did all you possibly could, and you loved her with all you had, and she knew that, one day you will see her again….once again , I’m sorry for your pain, and loss,May the Goddess comfort you…

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  10. Lots of deep Hugs, my sweet one, for you and Razzy. Singing helps a lot. I am remembering you and Kiki and Razzi in my prayers. I know Kiki is fine, playing and running free from pain with Mocha and Stinker. But you and Razzy are not. So lots of hugs.

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  11. My Sweet Sister (((hugs))) my heart is crying with yours.. oh honey.. I am so sorry.. you know you did EVERYTHING to make Darling Kiki’s life good, and happy, loving, comfortable, warm and caring.. she knows how loved she is/was.. all of your babies are so fortunate to have a home with you.. what a precious moment when Stinker and Mocha came.. and they wanted you to know they were there.. (((hugs))) but I am.. so sorry.. honey.. you’re surrounded by so much love ..

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  13. So sorry for your loss. We all love our fur babies. Because of their unconditional love they always leave a mark on our hearts that never goes away.

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  14. I know what your going through, my Morgan, passed a year ago. It hurts so much, my prayers are with you!

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  15. Dear Lady of the Abyss, I am so sorry for your loss. You have my prayers and my heart. Love and Light to you always.

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  17. my deepest condolences to you and the family circle

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    1. I am so sorry for your loss and feelings of loss and loneliness. My thoughts and prayers are with you all. Eventually you will find comfort in knowing that Kiki is with her friends and will be waiting to see you again.

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  18. I am so sorry for your great loss. I know that our fur kids are so very dear to us. Sending you love, light, hugs, prayers and healing energies. Much love.

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  19. Am really sorry. We know we don’t want the people/ animals to leave us but we know it will come sooner or later. Your pain is with me, may your sorrows go away soon. 😢

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  20. I am deeply sorry for your loss. Your post about Kiki tore me up. Just know you are not alone. I’ve been there. And I’ll be there again someday. There is no getting around it – it is the WORST. Prayers for you this night.

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  21. I’m so so sorry for your deep emptiness and loneliness. I hope you do take all the time you need. You’ll be in my prayers.

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    1. My Love and thoughts are with you, if you havnt already done so think of getting KiKi cremated, it was a beautiful casket i had of my Boston, and when your ready you can scatter her ashes, took me years to mend my heart, remember the funny times you shared, She will visit you again, and as i get visits from my Boston, youll giggle, Love to you and blessings X

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  22. Sending you tons of love and healing light sweet lady A .. May your tears continue to flow like the depths of your love when they are done, they will once again flow through you and bring you tears of joy and much happiness remembering your beautiful familiars .. Be blessed
    -Stregga aka Monique

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  23. So sorry. We are meant to live to see someone’s beginning middle and end, just as we are apart of another’s beginning middle and end. You’re in our prayers

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