THE WINGS SHE NEEDED

THE WINGS SHE NEEDED

His love gave her wings,
But it did not let her fly.
There was always something
Pulling her back from ecstasy;

Keeping her from quite feeling
The trust that is the lifeblood
Of a relationship.
She always felt that she had

To protect herself just a little;
There was a niggling doubt
In the back of her mind,
That would not be silenced.

Her friends tried to tell her
That it was just a backlash
From the failure of past relation-
Ships, but that wasn’t it.

His love gave her confidence,
And she loved him in return;
But, she did not love him
As wholeheartedly as she could
Have.

The one day she realized…
There was nothing wrong with
Either one of them.  She just was
Not ready yet, for a “forever”
Love.

If she was going to fly,
She had to fly on her own.  And
Until she was able to trust herself
Unreservedly, she could not

Completely trust anyone else,
Or allow them to be a true part
Of her world.  For she had a world
And dreams of her own;

She didn’t need to be just trying
To fly to someone else’s.
To know this freed her heart,
And she stopped feeling guilty

And trying too force herself 
To trust her lover too totally
Before she was ready. 
It was herself that she needed

To love and trust; no one else
Could give her the wings that
She needed, to soar
As far as she was able to go.

(c) Copyright 1/11/06
Beth Johnson
(Mystic Amazon)
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