I wanted to let you know that our domain is now pending sale. It is not one of the happiest days in my life but I have no other choice. Here it is Thanksgiving coming up and I don’t even have a Turkey for the boys’ Thanksgiving this year. In fact, we have hardly any groceries at all and we have a severe snow storm coming this way. I know most of you don’t realize how much it does take to operate a website and a store because you don’t own or operate one. You can ask Lady Beltane and she will tell you I am telling the truth. They are expensive to run to say the least. I hope she don’t mind me telling this but….that is why she went to charging for her lessons to cover her operating expenses.
As you all know I draw a small disability check each month. It doesn’t even cover our expenses at the house. I was borrowing money from PayPal to keep us a float but our sales for this month or so low that I can’t even borrow any money from them. They told me, we were off by $200 before I could get another loan with them. I was counting on that loan for some groceries and a turkey for the boys for Thanksgiving.
I have to admit who or whatever wanted us out of this business has finally won. I can no longer see going hunger, if it was just me, I wouldn’t worry about it. I have went hungry many a day to just keep the WOTC up and running. But now I have two boys to consider and I can’t nor will I let them go hungry. I have lights to keep on at both places, I have water to keep on at both places and you get the idea. I can’t very well let the lights, water and gas get turned off at the house to keep the WOTC and its store going. If I did what kind of mother would I be?
I have thought long and hard about this. I just don’t know what happened. Everyone kept telling me to hold on, it will get better. It is just this or it is just that. Well it hasn’t gotten any better only worse. With Winter coming on, it will take every penny I can mustard to just keep the house going. I know I have women around me but they are all volunteers. Some of them are in the same boat as I am in. They volunteered to give them something to do during the day or else they are a single family income house. None of us have any money and after talking to them and explaining to them the situation, they agreed it was time to sell the domain.
The domain won’t come up for sale for a few days perhaps in that length of time, if the WOTC is meant to be a miracle will happen. Yeah right. I don’t depend on miracles anymore. I have gotten myself in this mess and now I have two boys who are going to suffer for it. I took them in and told them I would give them a place to live, food to eat, clothes to wear and anything else they needed. Right now, I am struggling just to feed them. It just boils down to what I think is more important the boys or this site. I love this site and I love the boys. But the site doesn’t require food to live or a place to sleep at night, the boys do.
I hate to do it but like I said the sales at the store are horrible. There are no donations coming in here, so what other choice do I have. We have had a good run. We are one of the oldest Pagan/Witchcraft site on the internet. I guess our run is over. Or else that miracle will occur before the domain goes up for sale. Either way, I look at it this way, whatever happens it is meant to happen.
I don’t like to complain but I wanted you to know why I had made my decision to sell our domain. How would you like to look at two boys on Thanksgiving morning and tell them there is no turkey and dressing for Thanksgiving dinner? I know I don’t want to but it seems that I am going to have too.
I want you to know that I have enjoyed my time with all of you and keep your fingers crossed perhaps that miracle will come through for us. Then I can stop the sale of our domain. But if the miracle doesn’t come through then the sale will go on as planned.
I have got to scrap up the money now to run to the store and try to get us some food in here to eat before the snow storm hits. Remember no matter what happens, I will always love you and consider you part of my family.
Lady of the Abyss