I Come To You This Evening With A Very Sad & Heavy Heart

I received an email from Lady Beltane this evening. It was one that broke my heart and brought me to tears, Lady Beltane’s mother passed this afternoon around 4:00. I do know Lady Beltane and her mother were close. I know this has ripped her heart into. I also know she needs all the love and support we can give her. You never know the right words to say to a person during their time of grief. I really don’t believe there are any words that can take away the sorrow and grief a person feels. All we can do is let her know that we are here for her no matter what she might need. Show her we love her and offer any support we can.


If you have a moment, please say a prayer for Lady Beltane, her mother and her family.


Divine Goddess, Mother to Us All,

We come to you for my friend and sister, Lady Beltane.

We come to you to ask that You provide her with Your

Strength and comfort in this time of deep need and sorrow.

Her hurt and grief run deep.

We feel so much pain for her, but we can only imagine how

hard this time must be for her & her family.

We pray, Divine Mother, that you help her to

Stand strong in her faith during this difficult time.



Divine Goddess, Mother of Us All,

Give us the power and ability to comfort, our

dear friend.

Help us be what she need during this time,

Whether it is a shoulder to cry or just to listen.

Provide us with comforting words that will comfort

Her and ease her spirit and soul.

Let us be a symbol of Your light and comfort during

this difficult time.



May Lady Beltane always know we love her

and we are here for her.

Let her know that even though we can not

physical be with her, that we are there in spirit.

Let her know she is never alone for you,

Divine Mother are always with her as well

as us.



We ask these things for our dear friend, Lady Beltane

And her family.

We pray these things in your Divine Name,


So Mote It Be.




Good Monday Morn’, My Dear Family & Friends! Let Us Pray For A Better Week!

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In memory of the victims of the ferry boat sinking in Jindo, South Korea

Great Goddess, Divine Mother,

Be with these parents in their time of sorrow

Ease the pain that their hearts now feel

And soothe their battered spirits

Bless their nights with sleep that no longer comes easy

So they might cope with the long days ahead of them

Enfold them in your loving and compassionate arms

Though it be difficult, let them start to learn to live

with the loss of their beloved children

Help them to move forward with life

And let the pain grow less as times passes

Bless them with your love

Watch over them

And the ones they have lost now be at peace.

So Mote It Be

Wishing You A Bright, Bright Sun Shiny Friday, dear family & friends!

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Good Morning to all! I hope everyone is having a fantastic Friday. I have been up since 3:00. Just woke up, tried to go back to sleep, no such luck. A couple of weeks ago I experienced the same exact thing. At that time it was due to withdrawals for some of my medication. I switched doctors and I knew I was taking a lot of medicine from the other but…..The new doctor told me it was a wonder I wasn’t dead because I should have overdosed. Apparently the Goddess has been doing double duty with me. So the new doctor cut my medicine in half. I didn’t think a thing about having withdrawals. He cut one of the main drugs I had been on for years in half. That liked to have killed me. I didn’t sleep for three days. I had the shakes, sweat like a pig and quit eating. Finally called the doctor and talked to his nurse. She told me I should have called sooner. Then put me on a medication to help with the withdrawals. Now I am slowly tapering off of it. It is amazing, I am starting to come to reality now. And I am finding out reality sucks, big time!

During the period of my bad withdrawals all I could think about was death. Nothing to do with killing myself just dying in general. I had some very disturbing thoughts and also did some soul searching. The disturbing thoughts were due to the withdrawals, the soul searching was very enlightening. Now with that and reality sitting in, I am wondering what the hell had went so wrong. Or has it always been this way and I was so out of it I didn’t see it coming. Well, not coming but was here all the time and I didn’t recognize the situation. I don’t know but it has made me question everything I have ever done.

I can’t talk to anyone here. The last time I did everything got blew way out of portion. So I have just kept my mouth shut and tried to sort it all out in my poor, little brain. Probably why I couldn’t go back to sleep this morning. We have a house payment due, the property taxes due, another $600.00 light bill, not to mention a $140.00 water bill, the server’s bill is due, the animals are almost out of food, not to mention myself (but it wouldn’t hurt for me to lose a few pounds). It just seems like it is one thing right after another. Oh, I forgot, the wholesaler we hooked up with, turned out to be a total joke. The first few orders they did fine. The next two, nothing! I have had to go through Paypal to turn to get our money back on that. We still have money to refund to customers. I just don’t get it. Opened the store for a good reason and it turned into a disaster. I just wake up now and wonder what is going to happen today.

Perhaps my current situation is a test. A test to see if I can handle the real world. Who knows? I know I don’t anymore. I just get up and pray every day not to let anything else happen right now. I pray for the Goddess to help us and not to let me go crazy in the process. Help me sort this whole mess out. I know it will eventually but at what cost. Will we lose everything we have worked so hard to get? I don’t want to lose it all but I have grounded myself in my faith. I know the Goddess will see us through this one way or the other. She always has and I have faith She will again.

I know my attitude and personality has changed and I apologize for that. I have just came back to reality and my reality is a mess right now. So if I seem distant for a while, you now know why. I will eventually get it all together with the help of the Goddess. She has always been my rock through the good times and the bad. She has always been my Divine Mother and always will be. No matter what I will always continue to do Her work. I believe She has brought us this far for a reason and we have a long ways yet to go. No one ever said our Paths would be smooth and trouble free. You have just got to keep your faith and muddle through the best way possible. Know there is a reason for every thing that happens. Perhaps you don’t see it now but in the long run you will. Hopefully when it is all said and done, you will be a wiser person and have learned from that lesson. At least that is what I am hoping for myself.

You now have your daily update. See I told you, I would still talk your ear off and I did. Well I am going to surprise you and get all the daily’s on here about three hours early (if I don’t fall asleep at the computer). I hope you have a fantastic Friday and thanks for listening. Off to work I go…..

Luv & Hugs,

Lady A

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