Until tomorrow and all through your lifetime dear sisters, brothers, and honored guests may your life be filled with all things positive!
I have all of the northern hemisphere’s regular daily posts for tomorrow ready to go. I have the same for the southern hemisphere’s tomorrow. YEAH! I am finally more or less ready to get out of the dark playground in my mind and start living for just today again. The old saying, “If you have one foot in yesterday and one foot in tomorrow you will piss all over today.” I have been straddling today for too long and feel that have been unfair to all of you. I am very grateful to everyone for being supportive, understanding and patient with me not posting as I work through things and illnesses. I will not say my clinical depression and anxiety disorder are totally under control again, but I am working on getting them controlled enough that I am not afraid to leave me home. Yes, I have been staying in my home basically 24/7 unless there is something I have to do that I cannot pawn off onto Lord Beltane. But to leave my home and yard I am picturing myself as a tiny mouse in a maze that no other human can see me in otherwise, I would feel like everyone is staring at me and whispering about me. I truly hope that me writing about my depression and anxiety has reached at least one person to realize they are not alone with how they feel and that I validate their feelings.