Good Afternoon to everyone! I hope your Saturday is going better than mine. With me, it seems to be one thing after another. Life ever do you that way? I just found out our riding lawn mower is trash. The grass just happens to be up around your knees at the cabin. I been on Ebay looking at the prices there. I wanted an idea of what one cost and I swear, I guess I will get a herd of goats. I looked for even a push mower and they didn’t even have one listed. What, push mowers go out of style or something?

My old bobcat has a wonderful way of bringing up stray or hurt animals. I think Mystie might have mentioned this, I can’t remember. But we were sitting out on the porch. Up comes the old bobcat, then we heard this strange meowing sound. I told Mystie to stay on the porch and I went out in the field. I started calling to it and up came a stray, mangled, beat to death kitten. When the kitten came to me, she was scared to death to see it was a human calling her. But I slowly approached her and she let me touch her. I started to pick her up and at first she wouldn’t let me. Then the old bobcat came out and started loving all of me. Thank goodness, I guess he was telling her I was alright. She let me pick her up and I almost died. Her sides were sunk in to where they met. Her hair was in clumps, some of it missing and her back leg was tore all to pieces. I think something had bit her that was poisonous. So I brought her on the porch and told Mystie to go get a can of food. I put her down on the porch and opened the can. You have never seen a kitten eat like she did. She was starved to death almost. I petted her while she ate and cried and cried. I really didn’t think she was going to live, especially after I looked at her leg. It had all the hair messing on it. You could see the skin, then there was this horrible, deep bite. The bite when to the bone in places and also around her entire leg. It made me sick. So I made her a bed and fed her another can of food. About half way through that can, she finally quit eating. I figure she had been following her mother around and the mother came in heat again. The tomcats trying to mate with mommy dearest try to kill any kittens she has left from the previous litter.  So I figure that is what happened to this one. Again, thank goodness for the old bobcat or this kitten would have died.

It has been several days since the kitten showed up. I have been feeding her and she has been eating like a horse. But she wasn’t putting on any weight. Her poor leg was getting worse by the minute too. I had to try to fatten her up some before I even touched her leg. If the infection spread and she was weak it would kill her. I decide the other day she wasn’t putting on any weight, so I would have to chance it. I picked her up and talked to her very softly. Then she got scared when I started to run my finger down her leg. I still kept talking softly to her and she just turned and looked at me, eye to eye. I guess the poor thing saw then the tears swell up in my eyes. I was scared if I did it, I would kill her, if I didn’t she would die. She looked at me like she understood what I was going to do. So I got to the bite and before I knew it, it ruptured and puss flew every where. It was nothing but old, stinky, soured infection. And thank the Goddess it came out. I decided after this she needed an antibiotic also. I stopped at the local vet I generally use and he calls me when he needs an animal picked up. I walked in and we talked, I told him what I needed. He went and got it and I be damned he charged me full price for it. We usually get a discount, not this time. I paid it because the kitten needed it. But I mean really, he knows damn good and well what we do. Not to mention, I have picked up hundred of animals from him and he charges us full price for a bottle of medicine. I have been putting the medicine on the kitten’s leg and she seems to be doing better. At least now, she isn’t limping around, which is a good thing.

But it seems like here recently, every time I turn around I am getting shit on. Finally got financed for the A/C and heating unit. Turned it down. The cost of the unit is $3600. Well I wanted to borrow $4000 because I have a floor to replace also. I figured get it all done while I was at. The finance company was very generous, NOT! The interest was 24% and the monthly payment was going to be $170.00. I just shook my head. We can hardly meet our bills now and take on a payment like that, forget it. I would be committing suicide to do something like that. Damn!

So you see, I just really hate to get out of bed these days. It is like, what’s going to happen today to cost me a million dollars? I am sure though I am preaching to the choir. I know you all have your problems too. But you know it feels good to get all this crap off your chest. You see, you are the only group of friends I would tell all this too. I guess the reason being is because I am behind a computer screen and I can talk freely. I don’t tell anyone in real life this stuff. I keep it all bottled up. I keep my head held high and a smile on my face like nothing is wrong. When in reality, my whole world is collapsing around me. And I hate to tell you all this crap but it does some good to get it off my chest.

Thank you for listening, dear friends. With you, I don’t feel like I am alone in the mess. I hope I haven’t depressed you too much. If I have I have some really great “knock, knock” jokes to cheer you up, LOL!

I have wrote long enough on this one. Yes, this one! I have another to write to address some comments in the back. I sincerely hope you have a blessed Saturday and please keep me in your prayers.

I love you, my dear brothers and sisters of the Craft,

Lady A